It has been seven weeks since I wrote last and a lot has happened since then. I have one more week of Stats class and God has been faithful to me even when I was not. He did not forget me or forsake me and stood by me the entire time. There were times I would forget He was there and try in my own strength to succeed and it never worked. All it did was cause me to get into a frenzied mess! I was constantly reminded to cast my cares upon Him because He does care and will provide. The provisions He supplied me were more than I can even comprehend. I will pass this class, it looks like it might be a C or it could even be a B if I do well on the final, next week is the last week so I will know then for sure.
I got blindsided by some events recently. I was deeply hurt by someone I love. I had a hard time forgiving them for their choices because they directly affected me, I wrestled with anger and bitterness for two days, I could not sleep or think straight. I hated how I felt because it was holding me back from functioning at my best. I just kept hearing The Lord say to me, forgive how I forgave you. I just wrote these words above "I was deeply hurt by someone I love", I wonder how many times God felt like that, but He kept loving anyway! He didn't become bitter and distant towards me, He loved me when I least deserved to be loved. As an image bearer of Christ, I should do the same thing, I want to do the same thing, but it is not an easy task. That is why, I am reminded once again that we alone can not truly love or truly forgive. But with God's help through the Holy Spirit we can live in love. We must stay connected to the vine to bare the fruit.
I am grateful to be able to say that I continue to grow and become aware of God's never ending love for me. His Grace is sufficient for today and everyday and once again I have been pardoned and because I was willing to forgive I was let out of the jail cell my bitterness, anger and hurt trapped me in. May I be bold enough to continue to share what I have learned with others. Life is a journey and we sometimes go down dirt roads and discover paths we would have never seen had we not gone down the wrong road. As I typed that the Spirit spoke to my heart and said they were not wrong roads because they drove you to learn something new. I am grateful for what I learn because I can share it with you. I pray you are blessed today.
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